Letter ta Her

It seems tears in ma eyes never cease to come all of ma life ur satisfaction I never have won I sit here n see u offer him da world but all u offer me is torment n regret wen all I ever wntd was love n respect it seems every move I made pushd me further away u assume I’m not doin right so there is no trust today I cried many times at nite becuz I knew deep inside me n u would never wit eachother be satisfied but I kno dat dis is not how it should be but all ur actions toward me r criticism never love I see so I guess I have ta live ma life deprived of dis connection independence is now ma prime selection......
I hope one day u will realize everything I did was ta try n keep u satisfied all the sacrifices dat I made it wass all for u but ur to blinded by misery ta see da light shining through it seems dat ur only life intention is ta make me miserable 2 but it cannot happen becuz I’m just not u I don’t see da world lik u do I don’t live everyday of ma life to fight all I wanna do is right my wrongs becuz I kno in da end a better person I will become all Im trying to say is I love u even though I kno u don’t believe well at least I try ta show it but all ma life from u I never felt heard or even begin to see it dis is not da way a mother should act I can’t even begin to believe it but i will be here waiting for ya love to recieve it u say u dont trust me but i will work ta retrieve it....
ive learned life takes us down some crooked roads and u have to sometime pay da tolls but u not wnting me around dis thought ma mind cant begin ta fold around witout u here in ma life i would crumble down ur feelns should never be as they were lost but never found if i hold u down i expect da same ma arms r sittn here open until ur touch i claim i never askd for fame i never likd da rain becuz ur love would be da sun n da rain would be ma pain witout u in ma heart idk wat i can gain cuz dis despair in da future will leave me slain so dont turn ur bak on me as if u were da world dont tell me u dont care cuz u bought me into dis world....
 lets slow things down n take life slow why rush ta hate me wen we can take our time n let pain go i need u more den ever more now den before remember i had ta reach da age of ten before i even walkd through ur door many nites i prayed for u ta come bak but now that we stand here face ta face everyday i feel lik for ur love i have ta race why must dis be da case wat did i do ta deserve dis but i would never go out of ma way ta curse u behind ur bak let alone ta ur face so wats da situation tell me change will be our revelation becuz da bible told me dat "man can never hate that of which they created"...but getting around dis barrier i have ta find a way becuz i can not begin ma road on da way ta success wit ma life dis way i guess u want ma heart ta turn cold but ma love for u will never deterierate but only grow...i pour out ma heart n ma soul in dis this was ma letter ta her as ma tears would drip